Category Archives: Self Identity

Goalie No More

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – I keep meeting people who are all about the no. I used to be this way too. Once upon a time I thought I would just live in one place … Continue reading

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Uninvited

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – Lately I have been thinking about rape. A tough subject, I know. However, sometimes when people talk about the elephant on the table it helps the other baby elephants in … Continue reading

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Orphan Rituals

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – This morning I woke up out of breath. It’s a usual thing…maybe it’s allergies, maybe I have emphysema. Who knows? These are the kinds of crazy thoughts I have.  Every … Continue reading

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Choosing Chaos

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – When I was a little girl, I dreamed of being free.  Free not to have to pretend to be happy or smart or foolish.   Free to pursue my dreams … Continue reading

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Piano Demon

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – When I was seventeen, a cute singer from my peer group asked me to play the piano for him.  I had never accompanied anyone before but I wanted to please … Continue reading

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Green Braided Beard

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts  – Wind. Snow. Darkness. Night. Still and joyous. Almost joyous. This year has been one of pain and emotional strife but on this night the year all seems to be telescoping … Continue reading

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The Me Season

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – Life this year has been hard. Not because I am unloved or don’t have friends. Not because I do not have family who will come and help me if I … Continue reading

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Houses with Secret Rooms

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts  – When I was a little girl I used to sit in the fields above my house on a hill and hide in the tall grass. I would tramp it down … Continue reading

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Blinders and Dung

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – I like getting older. I like it because every ten years or so my brain explodes. Neurons fire, cells increase, memories connect and event after event that I absorb in life expands … Continue reading

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Death in a Blue Spotlight

A Big Life: Encouragement for People in the Arts – Once a long time ago I was cast in a really bad musical. The story was one of quirky Americana about the Wild West. I played a pioneer girl who didn’t get the … Continue reading

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